I feel so ugly right now...and its all my fault...and now its hard to help change it i look in the mirror&cry.?

Spots have come up really bad on my face cause i have been using so much makeup before they go fully. I need to fully get my skin back to healthy skin. I have spots that come up in the same place all the time and i only get em on my nose ande forehead. I look in the mirror and cry. The problem is i know how to get rid of em cause i done it before but i cant go out without makeup or even face my family. It's like torture. How can i get over the embarment. Or how can i go out with makeup on but discrete with no concealer or foundation without being embared. Please help me im only 14.